I Need Love

We all have a longing deep inside. The longing to be loved unconditionally, knowing that no matter what we do or say that love will never disappear. People search their whole life through for this love. unfortunately spouses, friends and family let us down in some aspect or other. Human interaction isn’t perfect and never will be. Due to the fact that we are human and no matter how hard we try we fail sometimes.

Growing up in church I often would hear that Jesus fills that need. Even though I’m a Christian this is a hard concept for me. I love Jesus with all of my heart, I believe in him with all of my being. However I struggle with this. I’m 38 and single, I get lonely. I tell myself I shouldn’t feel this way, I have Jesus. He is all I need. I am confident and comfortable in my singleness most of the time but there is still a little bit of that woe is me syndrome hanging on tight to bum me out once in a while.

Why is that?

Do I put the desire for marriage ahead of God? I don’t think so… I try hard not to.

Do I spend enough time with Jesus so he has a chance to fill that void in my life? Uh…. well… maybe… possibly that could be it.

It’s so easy to get busy and out of the habit of spending time in prayer and devotion daily. Taking the time to open my heart and mind to take him in. To receive all he has for me.

Including the unconditional love we all desire.

                                                                                                   Day 12 of 365